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Who am I?

Hi. I'm Kat. I'm 27. I'm depressed, anxious and overweight.

Each one of those factors feeds into each other. Which feeds back into the one.

It's great.

I'm also a pretty good cook, avid reader, loyal friend and reluctant gym-goer.

My favourite colour is green. And purple.

This is my Face.

What am I doing?

I want to reclaim my Mental and Physical Health.

Thus, I am writing this blog to keep track, give myself some accountability and maybe connect with others in this already saturated market.

Whyyy???

Why do I want to come off my Meds? I mean, I'm probably definitely on them for a reason.

Weeell... I was on what I'm currently, Citalopram, until I got suicidal...

Then, I was transitioned to Venlafaxine. From which I got the joyous, but ultimately harmless side effects of:

• Abnormal dreams
• Night sweats
• Excessive sweating

Which, as side effects go - are not bad! BUT my frequent nightmares and extreme nocturnal stickiness were starting to affect My Beloved's sleep. And that's just rude.

So I asked for something new, and they put me back on Citalopram. Plus this other thing to help me sleep, 'cause Citalopram gives me insomnia.

I really, really don't like the idea of taking pills to deal with the side effects of the pills I take to try and encourage me to behave like a Normal Human Being.

Especially when I don't really get to function at 100% anyway!

Plus, I'd really, really like to lose some weight.

Dear Body, 

I Love you. 

And am super grateful for all you do for me. 

But we really don't need to be carrying around this much adipose tissue.Let's let go a bit, eh? 

Love from Kat 

xox

Despite being a Good Girl Who Shows Up To The Gym And Eats Fairly Sensibly, I can't get a downward shift on the scale. I gain muscle and lose body fat. But I'd really, really like to lose some weight too.

Please?

Ultimately, I want to feel a modicum of control over my own Body.

When?

There's no time like the present? So, now.

NOW.

Where?

I'm New Zealand based - we're on the First Day Of Spring. And even though I'm a Winter Gal, Spring / Summer is the best time to be playing around with one's Neurochemistry, I feel.

How?

How am I going to go about this reclaiming of Self?

Well... It's going to be a Process, I feel.

I think I need to come up with some measurable goals, and timeframes.

For right now, I'm:

• Going to the Gym 2 x per Week
• Doing a Ridiculous Detox (It's a Thing. It's Happening. We'll discuss its efficacy or ridiculousness later.)
• Going to the Dr in a couple of weeks to Discuss:
• Coming off the Meds
• The Ridiculous Detox
• The fact I've been actively menstruating for the last month. Yay.
• I'm also (slowly) working my way through The Journal - which is a service provided by the NZ Government (I believe) which is supposed to help a person work their way through Depression / Anxiety

That's enough to be getting on with, I feel.

Just wanted to get started. Write something.

And I have.

Go me!

=^.^=